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Why I left Comicfury
Nov. 11th, 2023 02:30 pmI need to let out steam about an issue. I just made a last post in CF forum to let people know that I am okay, and I'm no longer going to be on CF.
First of all, ComicFury can be a little cliquey.
I need to share some of my experiences on Comicfury and in related Discord servers.
In RP game, I had a few people constantly make fun of my characters and tear apart my characters and stories without any request for constructive criticism. It brought me to the point I attempted to kill my characters off because I ended up hating my characters so much. I ended up believing they were so bad.
I also got gaslighted and manipulated by this one guy. Needless to say, he was not a great person after all. He also drew a NSFW art of my characters without my permission.
I also ended up known as a person who attempted suicide, not so much about my art and stories... and to me, it really ruined my reputation.
When one of my best supporters died, I didn't feel like there is a reason to stay on ComicFury, and I just decided to leave the OCT. I didn't feel like people respected me enough too which led me to walk away.
I remember a moment. I was roleplaying one of my characters, Rafferty, and I was feeling worthless. I couldn't handle graduate school. I was struggling to teach a bunch of freshmen. I was burnt out. I was helping manage Land96, but it gotten so big. There were a lot of drama going on. I had some mocking Rafferty or just tearing him down. I decided to just kill him off out of blue.
I was sobbing as I tried to get him killed off. I was struggling with suicidal ideations, and I nearly attempted a few days before. I remember thinking about taking my like one morning when I realized I had a bunch of freshmen to teach that day. I loved Rafferty as a character, but I ended up hating him so much after people tore him apart as a character. I tried to get him killed off a LOT... I'm sobbing right now.
Myk, if you are reading this, it took me a while to love Ship/Rafferty again...
The whole Land96 drama and the fact I was manipulated by that one guy turned out to be an albatrosses around my neck. I feel like it's better for all of us that I leave the site. When I was in OCT, I was just kindly asking someone in PM how she was doing, and she just told me out of blue to never contact her again. I was just so distraught. When JM died, I was struggling a lot that I came off medications due to insurance mess. I almost went down the same path as JM.
I ended up leaving the OCT and starting to move away from CF to start all over again from scratch.
First of all, ComicFury can be a little cliquey.
I need to share some of my experiences on Comicfury and in related Discord servers.
In RP game, I had a few people constantly make fun of my characters and tear apart my characters and stories without any request for constructive criticism. It brought me to the point I attempted to kill my characters off because I ended up hating my characters so much. I ended up believing they were so bad.
I also got gaslighted and manipulated by this one guy. Needless to say, he was not a great person after all. He also drew a NSFW art of my characters without my permission.
I also ended up known as a person who attempted suicide, not so much about my art and stories... and to me, it really ruined my reputation.
When one of my best supporters died, I didn't feel like there is a reason to stay on ComicFury, and I just decided to leave the OCT. I didn't feel like people respected me enough too which led me to walk away.
I remember a moment. I was roleplaying one of my characters, Rafferty, and I was feeling worthless. I couldn't handle graduate school. I was struggling to teach a bunch of freshmen. I was burnt out. I was helping manage Land96, but it gotten so big. There were a lot of drama going on. I had some mocking Rafferty or just tearing him down. I decided to just kill him off out of blue.
I was sobbing as I tried to get him killed off. I was struggling with suicidal ideations, and I nearly attempted a few days before. I remember thinking about taking my like one morning when I realized I had a bunch of freshmen to teach that day. I loved Rafferty as a character, but I ended up hating him so much after people tore him apart as a character. I tried to get him killed off a LOT... I'm sobbing right now.
Myk, if you are reading this, it took me a while to love Ship/Rafferty again...
The whole Land96 drama and the fact I was manipulated by that one guy turned out to be an albatrosses around my neck. I feel like it's better for all of us that I leave the site. When I was in OCT, I was just kindly asking someone in PM how she was doing, and she just told me out of blue to never contact her again. I was just so distraught. When JM died, I was struggling a lot that I came off medications due to insurance mess. I almost went down the same path as JM.
I ended up leaving the OCT and starting to move away from CF to start all over again from scratch.
